IM SO SORRY

contrary to belief i am not quitting cosmic collection. i have been going through SO SO SO much. i will resume blogging closer to christmas.

Alannah "Planee Jane" Scott

When you look at this girl above you are looking at a genius. a person whos creativity goes so far you wont even believe ! and id appreciate it if people would STOP copying her and let her be great ! because she's one of the most influential people ive met in the past 2 years. so if your out there copying her ideas stop it and reevaluate yourself !

romance

lately, i've been feeling so alone love wise. meaning that no one loves/likes me romantically. and then when i tell people its like oh well your too young to even date. but my age is just a number and my maturity and my feelings are separate from my age. the way i feel is that i find myself falling for someone too fast. or i take out the time to like them then they dont like me in return.therefore you go back to your exes and see if there available and theyre all happy and moved on. or they just want you for sex. and sex is not a big thing with me so im not going to have sex with you to fill the void in your life. and i just dont know if romance is for me. is is possible for someone to be single for life? is it possible that someone has no one on earth who they belong with ? could this be true ? its just so depressing. that i find myself sad ALL the time. and you try to lift your spirits through out the day but it could be the littlest thing that just makes you sad all over again. i dont think ive ever been this personal on my blog but this is the only way i can vent because no one ever understands. and its not their fault. theyve never been in my position. however i have been reading the romantic tragedy of Romeo + Juliet. and its about the most saddest romantic things ive ever read. i find myself swooning for Romeo and siding with juliet. its a wonderful book.

then i recently saw new moon. and loved every bit of it. i read the book and cried about 6 times when reading the book. and when i went to se the movie i cried about twice. im a big softee but i could relate on the term of abandonment of your lover. im not going to go in detail but someone i lvoed who was DL. had left me high and dry when people had found out about him being gay and when bella is left by edward thats EXACTLY how ive felt before. therefore it brought tears to my eyes. but i do want a love so deep that i cant be with out them. and they love me back. i really want someone to like/love me back. not even int he snse as much as i like/love them. just some type of affection and attention. im not used to attention at all. so some of it would be nice.

please listen to this Lykke Li song. it describes how i feel.

i have been writing when im sad. and i wrong a song called. "im only sober when im sober" im not going to share lyrics or anything but i did wanna share i was writing music.

if any of you want to contact me on this PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COMMENT OR EMAIL ME @ instant.vintage93@gmail.com

i know this post was extremely sad and weird. but i feel like i neeed to express myself. but until then i know my love will come on day. at least i hope

icon love.

i wish i could meet a boy who loves me. ♥

FAUX BOWIE

this photo really reminded me of david bowie and i love him. like if there was a 2009 version of david bowie then he would look like that from the neck up. its amazing i love her hair. david bowie for life.

Cole is Dazed

i love these strange pictures of cole mohr. they remind of something you might see in Dazed in Confused magazine or something. cole mohr is one of my fav. male models and this is the 1st shoot ive seen where i didnt get it.

Grace Jones X Andy Warhol Polaroid

Marc

add marc on twitter love him LEBOCHI

Fashion Monster

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Rihanna's booklet is inspirational.

CRAWL

everyone knows i love cassie ventura. and she looks absolutely stunning in the chris brown video crawl. i wonder what her dress is

ps. all screenshots were done by me. and if you use them please credit me.

When i was gone.

these were the things that were on my mind.

while i was away i was dreaming of fur, knits, relationships, tattoo's, rihanna, and rock n roll. i wont get into the specifics of why i was away but if you know me you would know. but anyway this winter i hope to get a fur coat. from some vintage storre here in baltimore. if you happen to live in baltimore or even DC and know some great vintage stores email me at instant.vintage93@gmail.com. then i want some knit glove fingerless of course. rihanna's album Rated R is coming out nov. 23. and im so fucking excited ! i want ash's tattoo on his chest or one like it. and i want liek 3522454325432535 other tattoo's and one peircing that i wont share.

with relationships. i feel like with all the things i do possess. (knowing who i am, cuteness, and other things) im still lonely. i dont know. some boys dont hold my interest. i get bored easily. or then the guys i do like either dont put forth effort. or they dont like me. it's all so frustrating sometimes. like why cant you meet a guy of your dreams ? whats so bad about that? ugh. i know i sound stupid because im talking about love and im 16. but i feel older than 16. and i want love.

sexy and bare.

Peaches